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How I Went From Surviving to Thriving after Baby

I swear I read everything and anything about what to expect when you are expecting. Ok that’s not 100% true. 😛 But I am a reader and I sure did read numerous books. However, very little actually prepared me for the REALITY of having a baby. And nothing prepared me for how to go from surviving to thriving after baby. Oh sure, the books prepped me on the stuff that you should buy to be ready, such as having a crib or clothes or an incredible wrap if you love baby-wearing as much as I have. But, I sure did miss the books and articles that tell you just how much a baby poops. Oh my stars. The poop. Out the diaper, up the back, down the legs, in the clothes, on the feet.  No one prepared me for that. Or what about the spit up. Goodness gracious. The projectile vomiting that goes everywhere. All over you. All over your cute, not baby proofed furniture and cute flooring and rug. And the smell. Or for that matter. The laundry. The never-ending-constant-piles-washing-machine-always-running amounts of laundry. None of my professional experience, none of my years of babysitting and nannying, not one book prepped my heart for the all-consuming life that I had just stepped into. Who can relate?!

Moreover, nothing prepared me for how my soul and my heart would feel now that there was a baby living in my house. What I am talking about is caring for your soul after a baby. See there is an incredible change that takes place now that you have your baby. If you are like me, that change was upside-down, inside-out, the biggest change I have ever known. From the busyness and demands of my job, to worrying about how to keep this sweet soul alive I was now consumed with everything from feeding to counting wet diapers to worrying do I wake the baby or let the baby sleep. And oh my stars. The opinions. Everyone. I mean everyone has an opinion on what you should do. Put that baby on a schedule. Never put that baby on a schedule. Wake that baby if it has been more than three hours. Never wake a sleeping baby. Don’t let the baby sleep in your bed cause you know….SIDS. Don’t let the baby sleep in a crib cause you know….SIDS. Don’t let the baby sleep in a car seat…cause they will suffocate and die. Well ok.  Now I’m totally exhausted and there is no where for baby to sleep. I cried a lot. I sure didn’t want to be bad mom. Failing my kid was not high on my “mom goals”. But, I felt alone. Isolated. Around me people seemed to have it together, so it didn’t feel safe to express what was going on inside my heart. The weight of every decision I made felt wrong, and I was constantly disappointing someone. The mother. The in-laws. The best friend. The parenting expert. Even the baby. And the partner. Everywhere I looked women had it together. They would show up places fully made up with a cute, sleeping baby dressed in the latest fashionable baby wear, and here I was. Drowning. Hadn’t showered in days. Worn out from juggling the raging war in my head over how to parent and feeling like an absolute and total failure.  Is this you?!

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I’m here to tell you there is hope. For me, I had to learn to self-care. This was totally new to me. My entire life I have taken care of other people. Whether it was siblings in my home, serving my friends or professionally where I loved on teenagers. People are part of my love language so naturally I worry about everyone else before thinking of myself. However, today I want to talk to you about moving from surviving to thriving after Baby. These are in not in order of importance because they are all incredibly important and I would argue equally important.

1. Sunshine

Get some sun! I know this is hard. You want to hibernate and want to isolate. You are drowning in a sea of poop and bottles and laundry and never enough hours in the day. If you are already back at work you are lucky to see the sun before you even get home. I get it. But you must get outside. Low Vitamin D can lead to low moods and lower cognitive function. According to Mayo Clinic, even 10 minutes of exposure will prevent deficiency. Maintaining a healthy Vitamin D level (best if you can get it naturally from the sun!) has so many benefits! Not to mention getting outside is good for baby to get those same Vitamin D benefits. Smelling the outdoors, hearing the outdoor sounds, feeling the wind whistle through your fingertips or the sun on your face or the leaves rustling around you, nothing can replace the way the outdoor can engage your senses and help you feel alive.

Sunshine

2. Do Activity

Do activity. Every single day for 30 min. This can be something as simple as pushing your baby in a stroller around the block (OUTSIDE – see #1 🙂 ) or as aggressive as taking me time at a gym and running on the treadmill, going for a swim or doing a relaxing yoga class. But do not just sit every single day on your couch. You need to love you, your body, and some sort of movement every day is great for the heart, great for a healthy mood and avoiding depression, and a myriad of other health benefits.

Activity3. Remember Who You Are

Do something you love. Gosh for me this was it. Having a baby became this overwhelming, amazing, but intense way of living. With my first, I came home with a NICU baby. Talk about 0 to 100. So worried to bring this little one home, he was so fragile, and had health issues. Days seem to drag by. The fatigue and lack of sleep was so intense. And somewhere along the way of caring for this new bundle 24/7 I just stopped living almost. My hobbies, my interests, my passions all took a backseat to this new all-consuming life. I had to learn that my new role as a mom was just one part of who I am. Not just a mom; I am still a friend and a daughter and a missionary (I was still gainfully employed in that season), and a wife. I was still a woman who loved to read, loved to sew, loved to scrapbook, loved to socialize with people. All those things are still important, so I had to figure out a way to incorporate all that into my life and my job as mama and parent.

Remember Who You Are

4. Prioritize Your Partner

Cultivate time with your spouse/partner. I alluded to this above, but here I want to flat out say it. Your kids are important. No doubt. Super important. They have crazy needs. All the time needs. Even now that my oldest is 4, I still find he has so many needs. While there are some things he can do, such as get dressed or use the bathroom, he still needs a lot of assistance, direction, attention, and cuddles from me. However, he will likely be in my home maybe only 14 more years (I pray for more than that!) and after that time, if my kids fly the coup, I will still have my partner.

So where do you prioritize your partner while you have the baby and kids? I know it’s so hard to remember you have that partner believe me. You are tired, soooo touched out, feeling as if you have nothing left to give, but I promise you this is so critical to have a thriving household. Where the couple is happy and healthy, the kids are happy and healthy!

Prioritize Your Partner5. Accept help.

Accepting help is super hard for me. But accepting the blessing of someone who offered to clean my home. Bring us meals. Do our laundry. If you are like me, love to take on all the challenges of the world, allowing someone to help, admitting you NEED help and cannot do it all can feel like defeat, can make you feel like a failure. Let me tell you – you are NOT. It is a sign of STRENGTH, not weakness, to ask and receive help. It really does take a village!

If you are introverted and overwhelmed by people, I know its hard to ask for help for a totally different reason. Someone coming in to your home, to your space, asking questions about your life, gosh that can feel so draining. But again, allow people to help. If the introvert in you feels overwhelmed, allow them to play with your baby while you go soak in the tub and have some alone spa time. It would make my heart happy to hold someone’s baby for an hour! I know you have a friend like me who would love to come help.

Accept Help

6. Appreciate other Women

Do not compare! Realize there is no perfect parent and no mom who really has it all together. I had to step through this lie. There are definitely people who are better at maintaining an outward appearance. I have also learned that there are people who are thriving in this parenting journey and do it well, and I am so thankful for them because it is from these women where I have learned most of these tips. Many of them were gracious enough to let me see behind the curtain where they were vulnerable and transparent and confessed it is impossible to have it all together. It is why as women and moms we need to show each other an incredible amount of grace.

Focus on your unique journey. Do not look to the left or right by way of where you feel inadequate, but notice around you how much each woman you know adds to your journey. Each woman in your life has the ability to enhance and contribute positively to you, if you will allow them to do so.

Do Not Compare

7. Check Hormones

It doesn’t hurt to get your hormone levels checked. I had a complete hormone panel run by my midwife after birth and found that I was not comfortable with my progesterone levels, even though the tests said my range was normal. I did some digging and found some research from the National Library of Medicine here and Dan Pursuer’s book here that suggested my ranges were not normal. In fact, most women he saw had levels near 0, when ideally you want your number to be much closer to 10 ng/ML – especially to protect against breast cancer and uterine cancer.

  • Estradiol >50 pg/mL
  • Progesterone >10 ng/ml           (but >20 ng/ml (to prevent Breast CA)
  • Testosterone >50 ng/ml,
  • DHEA 200-300 ug/dL
  • Thyroid Free T3 app. 3.0 vs 4.0 pg/mL
  • IGF-1 270-310 ng/mL
  • This info came from Dr. Pursuer’s handout found here.

It might be worth looking into and getting tested and comparing your info to this info. For me, I add in this natural progesterone cream, which you can buy here, and it has been a game changer for maintaining balanced emotions, uplifting my spirits, as well as supporting mild mood changes, cramps, and edema associated with a normal menstrual cycle.

Check Hormones

8.  YOU ARE ENOUGH!

Know it is going to be ok. It really is. Your love and concern for your baby is going to SHINE through. You are doing enough. Give your self GRACE. In fact, right now, go give yourself a hug and a pat-on-the-back. Parenting is hard stuff. And if you care this much, then you are doing it RIGHT.

A standard of Grace

As I was writing I had a longer list, but I think this list is the top reasons without overwhelming and with giving good practical advice and sharing parts of my story. I really am praying for every woman out there today who is just barely holding on. If that is you and you are looking for some hope, some thread, some thing to get through the day, I pray that you have been encouraged and I will be praying that you will move from just surviving to thriving. I am going to leave you with this beautiful quote by the amazing Maya Angelou, whose writing is so beautiful and full of timeless truths.
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I want to hear from you. What did you struggle with most in the transition to motherhood? Which parts of this resonated with you? What changes do you need to implement right now to move from surviving to thriving?

 

 

26 thoughts on “How I Went From Surviving to Thriving after Baby

    1. Mickey Post author

      Sorry I didn’t reply sooner. Love that you are my first commentor. Thank you for being the best kind of friend in every way! <3

  1. Krista

    I can relate to this very much. I always feel refreshed getting out of the house, even if it’s only for 20 minutes or so.
    You know…no one told me that this would be the most difficult time in my life (this mom of young children time).
    Along with time management, I have struggled with how you will never really have it all together. I’m not quite sure why I had the expectation that once I got through the newborn stage I would know what I am doing. Stages might get EASIER in some ways but it’s never EASY. Especially for a high need child like my Clara.

    It really just shows how much of His grace I need every day! Just as Clara is dependent on me to love her and attend to her needs, so I lean upon His love and look to His grace to supply my need of Him.

    Thanks so much for your post! It definitely encourages me to make more time for these steps to happen!

    1. Mickey Post author

      I think every stage sort of feels like the most difficult stage. I definitely felt newborn was hardest with my first as a new mom. The middle child felt hardest in the newborn stage, but only because I was then juggling an 18 month old who was very much still baby-like complete with on-demand nursing; and because my health was awful at that point. But she was such a breeze after my first. The last felt hardest in the newborn stage because the Bigs overwhelm me and consume my life. 🙂 Even though he really was such a cool, easy baby, too. I think trying to find joy in the journey and contentment at every stage is really the key. Cause they can all feel hard, but I think they can all be sweet and amazing if we seek Him and keep our eyes on Him.

  2. Dana G.

    Wonderful article!

    Going outside is a HUGE one for me. I’ve also learned to go with the flow more and my new motto for cleaning became “it’s better than it was before” and boy, when you stop striving for perfection and start focusing on doing enough to make yourself feel good (or better than you did before), it clears your mind and helps your soul feel good. Which makes loving and caring for baby that much better.

    1. Mickey Post author

      ooooh you hit the nail on the head….letting go of perfection! Such an important thing as a new mom, and really as an ongoing mom. There is no perfect parent. God made you uniquely to already be the perfect parent your child needs not to be perfect in your parenting, if that makes sense. But yes, releasing that and lowered expectations are also soooo critical! <3

  3. Cynthia

    Oh there are so many do’s and don’ts but you know what? You do what you feel works best for you. I refused to read anything while pregnant with my little apart from Hypnobirthing and practicing meditation twice and tuning in. I read The Conscious Parent after Bohdi was born and that’s it. There will always be someone ready to pummel you with advice but you need to tune in and listen to yourself first. You have a great list here: exercise and sunshine are winners for me! Good on you mama, you’re rocking it even if you don’t think you are.x

  4. Debra

    Some very important tips! As Mums we can forget that we matter too but we really need that reminder sometimes that we are worth looking after for ourselves and for our families.

  5. Angela

    Yes! Yes! Yes! Even though I am almost 1.5 years post partum with my second, I felt off and went and had my hormones checked, and by golly, I needed progesterone, too!

    1. Mickey Post author

      Nearly everything I come across these days talks about how low women are in this. Most women are incredibly deficient in progesterone!

  6. Lainey Robinson

    As a woman with infertility, I have read all of the what to expect books: what to expect when ttc, before expecting, when expecting, after expecting, etc. Yet I know that I still am not confident in any way lol. I’m so glad you addressed this…because people are my love language also.

    1. Mickey Post author

      Infertility is not an easy road…and how I wish I could hug you. I will be thinking of you and praying for you. <3

    1. Mickey Post author

      Overwhelming yes. But no regrets. Being a parent has been my greatest adventure and such a fun and wonderful experience. 🙂

  7. Erin Nichols

    Oh, I absolutely loved this post! I related to so much of it. I remember once my daughter did the whole poop up the back in a pair of footie pajamas. The kid, the pajamas, the diaper… it all went in the bath and then the bath got a nice bleaching afterward.

    But, really, I related to the entire having to find yourself again aspect. Somewhere in the process of becoming a mom I lost myself and it took me a lot of discovery to get that part back. Now I’m due with baby no.2 in September and am hoping for a shorter turn around time, if any at all.

    1. Mickey Post author

      Each kid has been an adjustment for me and had brought is own challenges and blessings. Congrats on baby number two. Will be praying for a safe and healthy arrival!!

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